Holiday Season

I can't believe it is another year - this year has gone by so quickly. I think back on my Mom's last Christmas (well at least my last Christmas with her). I walked in the door at my parent's house last year and my Mom was all dressed in a beautiful red shirt. She looked so pretty. We brought her to Church on that Christmas Eve. She loved Christmas Eve mass! In a wheelchair most people didn't know she was sick. So many people stopped to talk to her and those that didn't, waited until after mass was over. She was so happy that she made it through mass. I recall looking over at her from time-to-time and I knew what she was thinking. Thinking that she was so happy to be there but sad to think she wasn't sure how many more Christmas Eve masses she would have with us.

Lord, I can't believe I am writing this - I never thought last year that my mom would die - I thought she would get her lung and remain healthy, but God had other ideas. I miss my Mom terribly...

A Mom I looked up to, adored, and loved so much. A Mom who is no longer here to share my life with - a constant reminder of -- what would Mom do... A Mom that I spent a year trying to understand why... A Mom that has kept me from sleeping at night and a Mom who I love to listen and feel for....Don't ever leave me Mom - I miss you too much to lose you twice!